I’m still not sure if I have done something bad but I feel like I need to make amends. I wish your readers can help me out on this.
About 2 weeks ago, I was out with my younger sister when our mum called her and asked her to come home so she could lock the doors and go to sleep. I don’t live with them anymore and initially we were going to go home right then but my sister and I don’t usually go out and I hadn’t seen her since I got back from uni so we stayed out for a bit longer before I took her home.
When we got home, my mum had gone to her room and yet the lights were still on. From that, I knew she wasn’t asleep. My mum has some nasty attitude where she does things on purpose to make you feel guilty so I know she left the lights on intentionally so she could blast us in the morning.
We turned everything off and locked the doors and I decided to stay that night because no Ubers were available so I just slept in the hall. The next thing I remembered was being woken up by both my mum and sister screaming. Because I was just waking up, I was a little bit confused but after I calmed down a bit, I saw my mum on top of my sister beating her and shouting at her for not coming home early. She was insulting my sister and saying armed robbers could have followed her and so many other things and I saw her continuously hitting my sister with something. I don’t know if it was the tears of my sister or just being fed up, but before I realised, I had hit my mum on the head with a frying pan from the kitchen and it didn’t stop there. I kept hitting her over and over and over again. Even when my sister tried to stop me, I kept on hitting her. my
I snapped. See, this woman has been maltreating us since we were children. Our father died when we were young and left her a house, cars and a business and yet she was never happy. Even when we were kids, she would blame us for our father dying and beat us mercilessly. I remember one day where she had to pick me from school because I had my first menses. Even though I was first in school and she was given my report card, she insulted me as unclean and a disgrace who couldn’t handle womanhood. I remember clearly. She beat me on top of that for embarrassing her at school.
All these things were in my head as I kept hitting her and eventually if not for the fact that my little sister pulled me off her, I’m not sure I would have stopped. After that, I could see that her face was swollen and she was crying but I didn’t care. I just took my sister’s hand and left to my apartment with her. It took about 2 days before my mum called my sister to apologise to her. I didn’t bother speaking to her but I felt really guilty. From the way we were brought up, hitting an elderly person was bad. It is even made worse because she’s my mother. I don’t want to talk to her ever again after what happened but I’ve been thinking that maybe I have overreacted and I shouldn’t have hit her but I also just could not have stood there while she was beating my sister. All the memories came rushing back. Should I try to reconcile with her?
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